Come Back To Bed

My bed beckons... sleep offers momentuous relief and release from all the trouble.

Things have kinda whizzed by during the past week. I left for brunei on friday and here i'm back again.

I had hoped that the trip to Brunei would let things sort out by itself and I would have some time to think. Alone.

Guess I got what I wanted... but then again... how am i supposed to feel?

I'm no longer a third party. But is that something I should rejoice in? She made the choice... she chose... but who am i to gloat? I'll be a bastard if i did so.

Think. Think. I guess I'm not ready for something serious yet. She has been the centre-stage of my life for sometime now and like what nic said, I'll only be ready for her when i can manage her along with my studies and family.

Currently, the commitment problem is a headache. It was worse before when I knew she still had another. But things are different now, but I'm not gonna push it... not yet... Promos coming up... need to focus... FOCUS.

Who am i kidding?

She's still all that matters to me.